Am I a bad Mom Already!?!

I have a confession to make...

For a couple of weeks now, I have been feeling Lana moving.  She is not really kicking just yet, more like doing somersault after somersault.  I think she is going to be a gymnast!  LOL

I was so excited to feel her move for the first time and have been looking forward to the feeling for weeks now.  But, now that it is here, I must say it is a bit more disturbing than I had imagined.  Don't get me wrong, I love it because it lets me know she is in there thriving.  But, to be honest it is also very startling.  I find myself shocked and somewhat weird-ed out by the whole thing.


For many years I was told I would not be able to have children.  I was told getting pregnant was improbable if not impossible.  So, I never thought I would ever feel life stirring inside my belly.  Actually, I never even allowed myself to imagine it.  And, now that it is, it is just sooooooooooo foreign! It is just...weird!

Does this make me a bad mom already?   I don't know why, but I feel a bit guilty about it.  I feel like I should be like the other moms-to-be who instantly feel comfortable with the stirring and movement in there.  What do you think?  Has anyone else had these kind of thoughts?  Please tell me I'm not alone!